k i l l y o u r s e l f..no. don't really.
I have got to stop this obsessive need i have to clarify every little thing all the freakin time. it's driving me crazy, especially since nothing's going to come from it. but its not really important things. its little things that i make a big deal out of. but i'm getting over that, so i'm happier. i wish everyone was just fucking happier.

i don't know. im just so freakin tired. i'm only 15. imagine how tired i'll be when im 51. ohhh boy. can't think about that.

other then my current confusion which will most likely be gone after i get some sleep, things are pretty good.

why is everyone all about self improvement now. that's too much damn work. as long as ur happy with urself just shut up and live. no need to fix every minor issue with urself. people who like being messed up are happier. yes indeed.

i would just like to be able to set everything straight in my mind, but i have a feeling that won't ever happen. so i'm just gonna go along with stuff. and get some sleep. yeah. hah. i feel dillusional.

i feel like being helpful. not sure how to put that into use though.

today was a relatively good friday.

today at my brother's school some guy was going to set himself on fire over his girlfriend not being able to move with him. then a guy tackled him. and he was not on fire. so. i'm glad i'm not that guy.

Posted by Maleta at 9:58 p.m.